L-O-V-E

Follow your heart not your mind. Your heart will scream out to you the one you need and you know you hear it, because the one your heart is screaming is the same person that no matter if you are happy, full of love, irritated, annoyed, or just mad at...you know that everyday your going to think about them and every night before you go to sleep it's that persons name that pops up...

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany

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LOVE, LOVE.

Sometimes tears say all they need to say

I have and still cry tears for the horrible mistakes n choices I've made.

Wish I would feel the pain of a broken heart?

Well it's broken...

Want to hang me high?

Well I'm choked...

Want it to rain on me?

Well I'm more than soaked...

The old me is forever gone

All my ghosts are gone

They say I will do nothing but hurt and neglect you again

That I can't be trusted and to never take me back

I let them say what the want to

I made promises to you that I can and will keep

I was just a young immature girl before

I'm a woman now

& I will do everything that I can

To prove to you that I am a better person

Back in the days I would've been your #1 pick

But now I've broken your heart and that's hard to fix

My whole mentality has changed

& I know that I will never be the same

I will love you better

Let me show you what I mean

I want you back in my life and I promise I will do it right

Please trust me

From the bottom of my heart

Nothing will ever pull me apart

Let's cry together, and

God willing spend our lives together

"Where do we go from here, with all this fear in our eyes?

We've been so far down, but we can still touch the sky!

Lend me one more chance..."

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany

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EMMA I LOVE YOU

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany

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I'M YOURS

My body isn't perfect

I don't walk with all the confidence

Yeah I'd rather be with you or by myself then out partying

I cry over the smallest things

There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs

Sometimes I try and convince myself that things are okay when they're not

I'm not ugly

I'm not beautiful

I have nights where I cry myself to sleep

I've made the worse decisions of my life that lead to your heart ache

I have learned from my mistakes

I'm constantly learning, growing and making changes for the better

I don't have the softest touch

My communication skills need work

My edges may be rough

I don't always fit in

I don't have the greatest track record

I may not be the smartest person in the world

But I know what real love is

And I truly love you Emma

I may not be perfect

But I'm all yours

I'm so sorry

I really love you

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany

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LOVE

"he that dares not grasp the thorn should never crave the rose." -anne bronte

I love you Emma

I am sorry for the hurt I have caused

The petals of a rose represent the gentle feelings that I have for you

You are special to me and I'll never give up on our love

The strength of the love I have for you is strong like the stem of the rose

And you are beautiful to me just like it

I Love You

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany

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WHAT IT FEELS LIKE

I'M SORRY EMMA. . . .

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany

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NEW LIFE

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EMMA, I LOVE YOU. I don't need a specified day to tell you that I love you because I try to tell you and show you how much I do love you everyday. Still, I am sorry for what I did and the situation I put us in and that we aren't able to spend Valentines Day together. I do want you to know that I am sorry and I will continue to try and prove to you that I am, that I am trustworthy, I am committed to you and that I will never hurt you again. I really am truly in love with you and will do whatever it takes. I know you trusted me with your heart and I ripped it apart and I am sorry that I did. I am more that positive that that will never ever happen again. I want to be there to help you through the healing process and repair your heart. I tried to show that in the drawing below. It's a thread n needle sewing up a heart with the words "new life" on the sides. It's to symbolize that I want to help put your heart back together and have a new beginning. I know it will take some time and a lot of hard work but I don't care how long or what it takes. I really am sorry and I really really love you Emma.

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany

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LISTEN UP

Let me say this. It's one thing to come at me and to call me names, say whatever you want about me. If you feel the need to come read my blog and see what's going on in my life and try to create drama by leaving negative comments to me then you do that. It's another thing when you come and say things about Emma. I will not tolerate anyone saying anything negative toward her or about her. You can disrespect ME all you want but you WILL NOT come and disrespect her. It shows that you have noting better to do and I advise you find a life of your own that doesn't involve trying to bring negativity to someone else's. You don't even have the balls to own up to your own comments. It show's that you're insecure and scared. If you have something negative to say about Emma leave your name or come say it to me. I dare you. - Tiffany

THOUGHTS FLOATING IN MY MIND, NO SAIL... AHOY!

I am sorry

I love

I hate

I help

I hurt

I smile

I cry

I let be

I judge

I blame

I'm humble

I make mistakes

I make bad choices

I forgive

I give 2nd chances

I envy

I'm selfish

I'm selfless

. . .I'm human

In spite of my mistakes and bad choices in the past I know I am a good person and really good at heart. All I want is everyone to see the best in me despite those bad choices I've made in my past, but it is because of my past that people only see the worst in me. That needs to change just like I have. I admit to my mistakes and take the blame (as I should) for my actions. Although they don't have rehab centers for being an asshole like I was, I have been and am still constantly changing and growing. Learning with every step taken. Not knowing what's to come or what may be, but knowing that only I can fulfill my dreams. Only I can figure the path that is best and will lead me to a higher place.

Everyone has that point and time in life where you finally find yourself. When you finally know who you are and what you want and who you want to be with. When you become mature and finally realize all the things the people tried to warn you about since you were a child. The time in life where it finally hits you. Some get to that point early and others later on in life. Some listen and learn from others mistakes and some just don't understand until they go through it themselves. And when you finally get to that point, some will do anything and everything they can to be who they know they are, get accomplished what they want and be with who they know they want to share life with. Others will confine their own happiness for the approval or happiness of others, then try to make themselves believe they can be happy with something else. Worried about how people will perceive them instead of doing what they know will make them happy.

But everyone is different. One thing that may be for sure is that when you do go through that time in life whenever it may be. When you stop living for others and stop just living in that moment and living just to fit it in or to be popular. When you stop sacrificing your own happiness to be accepted by people who could care less about you. When you go where you are celebrated not tolerated and notice the people who were never there before but suddenly have a great interest in your life and vice versa. When that change finally comes, it will be a good change that you will be happy with in the long run. A change that you made for you and for your life and not for anyone else's because no one can live your life but you. Still people will look down upon you and say you've changed in a bad way. They'll say you are changing who you are and becoming someone different when you're not. You just stopped living your life their way and finally standing up for who you really are.

I am being looked down upon now because of my mistakes in the past which is understandable being that we are all human and it is easy to point the finger. I admit to my mistake and stand strong knowing that I am a good person and I have changed for the better. Knowing what I want out of life and who I want to share it with. Knowing I will do anything to reach my dreams. I Tiffany, am in love with Emma. I always will be no matter what. My love for her is unconditional because I believe that you should either be or don't be. There's no middle ground so it leaves no room for confusion. I love her and always will, period. I will do everything in my power to show her that I do, that I'm sorry and that I have changed. In the face of true love you don't give up. I know this will be hard because it's already hard to wait around for something I know there's a possibility that it might never happen. It's even harder to give up when I know it's everything and the only thing not that I'll ever want and need but her also. Everyone should realize that a dream isn't just a dream, but its something that only you know and only you can make a reality. She is my cinderella, my dream only fits one size. My dream is going to be the hardest thing i'll probably have to face in my life but I don't think it's impossible. Okay I think I did enough yapping for today. Just had some things on my mind that I needed to let out. Bottom line I'm not giving up. Love never fails and the world is filled with infinite possibilities, go out and make them your own. I Love You Emma. I'm Sorry...

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany

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IM IN LOVE WITH YOU

There's a very nice quote that says "music speaks what can not be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul." The song below is such a beautiful and powerful song and it's as if the lyrics where taken right out of my mouth n heart and put over a beautiful melody. This song was sung so beautiful and passionate and expresses the way I feel inside. I want to dedicate it to you Emma. I'm in love with you!

ERYKAH BADU FEAT. STEPHEN MARLEY - IN LOVE WITH YOU

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. - Tiffany

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THE HANDS

Place your hands like mine in the picture above and follow along as I explain what it represents....

First, the thumb represents your parents. Now try separating them apart. Notice how they easily open? They separate so easy because you are not destined to live with your parents forever.... Now join them back together.

Next, separate your index fingers. You will see that they will open too. These fingers represent your siblings. They will also lead their own lives in the future.

The middle fingers represent yourself...

Next separate your pinkies. These fingers will open as well because they represent your kids, who will also have a different life from yours, eventually.

Lastly, try opening your ring fingers... You're right, you can't. This is because the ring finger represents you & your spouse; for me, us & the love I have for Emma. No matter what I will remain together as a part of her for the rest of my life. To me this represents exactly what I am trying to get across. I will never leave her side, only stand together by her no matter what. It is the ring finger because it belongs to her and only her forever. She is not my number one because then that would mean that there's a second and third. She is my only one.

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless - Tiffany

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LOVE THROUGH IT ALL (POETRY)

See I love the Lord

but sometimes its like

I love her more

I love the seas

and I love the shore

but no love for no beach

baby that’s law

i trip, i fall

so we fell apart

please have sympathy

and forgive my young history

I swear I love her with all my heart

every vein, every vessel

every bullet logged

with every flower that I ever took apart

placement above all others

I will give you greatness

eyes glow green with the logo of our dreams

love, the purpose of our scene

she would be my queen

I, a female version of her king

together

we would be too cool

and we would both rule

forever

and she would never feel pain

and never be without happiness

ever, again

and if the rain stops

and everything’s dry

I will cry

just so she can drink the tears from my eyes

I will teach her how to fly

n if her engine ever stalls

and she plummet from the sky

I’ll cushion her fall

but I will keep her high

so began our reign

the Trinity, her and I came

no weather man, could ever stand

what her and I can

umbrellas, whatever

put plywood on propeller planes

then pray to God the the floods subside

cause you will need a sub

till he does reply

Can you feel it?

Do I love her?

the likes of which you have never seen

and if she ever die

I’d retire as well

a match made in Heaven

set the fires in hell

Thanks for reading & God Bless -Tiffany

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THOUGHTS

Emma I've failed you so many times I can't even count them all. If I apologized a billion ways it still wouldn't cover them all. You loved me when I didn't even love myself, how can you forgive someone like me with all of my mess? Stress I caused on you and so many, used words that cut like a sword, with the same tongue I said I loved you and with the same tongue I cursed you. If you turn your back on me like many times I did to you, I'd be a dean woman walking, lost in the wilderness. My flesh sometimes get the best of me, and 9 times out of 10 I fall to my knees. I ask you to forgive me. I can't afford to make too many mistakes and end up losing my life on a temporary kind of high. Playing Russian roulette with my life. That's no way to live, in doubt and fear. But you gave me power and a sound mind. So I thank you for sparing me while I was wallowing in self-pity.

My God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins, because I dread the loss of heaven, and the pains of hell; but most of all because I have offend Thee, my God, who are all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of Thy grace, to confess my sins, to do penance, and to amend my life. Lord, Forgive what I have been, sanctify what I am & order what I shall be. Amen

My apologies Emma, to the entire Garton Family & all close friends of...

Thanks for reading & God Bless -Tiffany

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