Monday, May 3, 2010

Its finally up and running for you Emma. (the O's in organiclove are zeros) I hope you like it! I Love You!

Sunday, April 25, 2010


I know I haven't posted anything in a while but that doesn't mean I've given up only means I've been working that much harder. I'm still continuously making progress be it slow or fast, its progress none the less. Still learning and growing and changing for the better and working towards helping Emma heal and making her happy as possible and showing her I'm sorry and I love and care for her more than anything in this world. Some of the things that I have learned is that love is neither free nor is it easy, but the level of contentment you can attain and the happiness you gain at the end of the road will make it all worth the while. To love and be loved in return is one of the best feelings in the world if you can find that, but you must be willing to work for it. You must be willing to go through some tough times and make difficult sacrifices to get where you want to be. But the harder you work, the more rewarding the outcome will be. I feel like people make a big fuss about how much love hurts, but it's not love itself that's causing the pain. It's the jealousy, the loneliness, the past heartbreak (along with a number of other things) that's in charge of all that. NOT Love! At the end of the day though, Love will always be a beautiful thing and it's something you can not deny. Nobody no matter what 'their' opinion is on 'your' life, they can't tell you that you can't or shouldn't love another person because they have no idea how you feel about them. No one can tell me that I shouldn't or that I don't love Emma! But thats just a few of my little thoughts. Back to the grind, until next time. Emma... Love, Love :-*

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Sunday, April 4, 2010


"For her, I would carry the cross to my own crucifixion if it would make her have more faith in me. & I could hang from that cross and you could pierce my side with a spear & I would just bleed more reasons to love her. & I could die on that cross & you could bury me in a tomb and I would rise on the 23rd hour just to prove that I could not live a day without her. & I would go toe to toe with eternity for the rights to her next lifetime cause I was the only one made for her. & some may question the love that we share but it only makes me question their faith. so I ask you. what else do I have to prove?"

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Monday, March 29, 2010


Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family

Please, BELIEVE. . . . .

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Put It All Together

What I'm trying to say is, the heart has reason that reasons do not understand, and I know this love we have is difficult but this love that we have is so real. So I'm not telling you that this will be easy, but I am telling you that it will be worth it because I really do love you and only you Emma! BELIEVE. . .

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Wednesday, March 24, 2010


Today Today Todaaaaay is a very very VERY Special Daaaaay!!! It is the day Emma was born! Whooop Whooop! I Love You Emmi!!!! So so much! It's your *Star Birthday* and I hope it's a great day for you! I'm sorry I'm not able to spend it with you but even still I hope you enjoy your day with your family and close friends! May you have many many more to come and may we be able to share them together for the next 100yrs! lol I love you Emma, you are such a beautiful woman and God is most definitely missing and angel! HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE! :-)

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Wednesday, March 17, 2010


I don't look as cute as he does but I miss you much more. I love you Emma!

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Monday, March 15, 2010


Dedicated to you Emma. I know how much you like candy lol

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


I hate looking back at things and wondering why I was like that or why i did what i did. Life is such a crazy thing. Very confusing and difficult to understand. Especially when things don't turn out the way you want. If you fail at one thing does that mean it wasn't meant to be? Or does that mean you are just learning to be strong and not just accept things but have the courage and power to change them. It does not compare or come close to my situation, but along the lines of giving up what if Jordan gave up when he didn't make he high school basketball team. He could've easily stopped and said it wasn't mean to be. But he didn't except that and he worked harder. I'd be lying if I said that they're weren't times were I felt like giving up.When my hearts had enough I just hang on and go harder. Am I just a fool in love? Love is such a powerful thing when its real. They say distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.

There are many lessons in life that only time can teach you. like how much you love someone. It's nearly impossible to know that until you spend your days without them. And then there are those lessons that you can learn only through the beating of your heart, and through feeling such strong emotions that you can barely breathe. Then finally the essence of time and power of your heart crossing paths, and the knowledge you're left with is the realization that time is the one thins that keeps you from letting go. When you truly realize and know that you want to spend all of your time with that person because you love them no matter what. The embracing, the kisses, the laughter, the tears, the heartache is all love.... What I have with her is worth it. It's worth every lonely night. Every tear I cry from missing her and the heart ache and pain I feel from not having her close. It is worth it because she is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now I see only her. No matter how painful distance can be, not having her in my life would be worse. I love you Emma....


Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Monday, March 8, 2010



Cause you’re my oxygen without you i WON’T-BREATHE

You're everything that i WANT-NEED

for you I wear my heart on a SHORT-SLEEVE

I know some things need changing

That takes time we need MORE-PLEASE

I ain’t do everything I could’ve done

& shit that I did ain’t good enough

Your friends said they been would’ve left

Aint do you right, So you head to the left

I can’t say that I blame you

I never thought that it would be this painful

People do it everyday, I can change too

but dealing with the heartbreaks what you can’t do (true)

Apologize till I turn blue

And every 3rd of the month just know I think of you


How to live my life without you I just DON’T-KNOW

Without you in my life

I be SO-LO

I say I love you, say it DON’T-SHOW

Fuck the money and them gifts don’t count

What about the smaller things you needed

and why the fuck I made you leave before we seen it

Damn, I need your love like I breathe it

Being without you like Kelly no Regis

I keep secrets

I couldn't apologize enough times for messing with that sleaze BITCH!

But I could still tell that your leaving

and like I said I can’t blame you the lease bit

If you could just see that I love you

I'll always love you, place no one above you

You shot a arrow through my heart

I blacked out passed out

Woke up then threw

Damn it's really love

The current shame is, the times changing

Best friends become strangers

Don't let us go

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Saturday, February 27, 2010


Follow your heart not your mind. Your heart will scream out to you the one you need and you know you hear it, because the one your heart is screaming is the same person that no matter if you are happy, full of love, irritated, annoyed, or just mad know that everyday your going to think about them and every night before you go to sleep it's that persons name that pops up...

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Thursday, February 25, 2010


Sometimes tears say all they need to say
I have and still cry tears for the horrible mistakes n choices I've made.
Wish I would feel the pain of a broken heart?
Well it's broken...
Want to hang me high?
Well I'm choked...
Want it to rain on me?
Well I'm more than soaked...
The old me is forever gone
All my ghosts are gone
They say I will do nothing but hurt and neglect you again
That I can't be trusted and to never take me back
I let them say what the want to
I made promises to you that I can and will keep
I was just a young immature girl before
I'm a woman now
& I will do everything that I can
To prove to you that I am a better person
Back in the days I would've been your #1 pick
But now I've broken your heart and that's hard to fix
My whole mentality has changed
& I know that I will never be the same
I will love you better
Let me show you what I mean
I want you back in my life and I promise I will do it right
Please trust me
From the bottom of my heart
Nothing will ever pull me apart
Let's cry together, and
God willing spend our lives together

"Where do we go from here, with all this fear in our eyes?
We've been so far down, but we can still touch the sky!
Lend me one more chance..."

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry


Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal. . . . I'm Sorry

Sunday, February 21, 2010


My body isn't perfect
I don't walk with all the confidence
Yeah I'd rather be with you or by myself then out partying
I cry over the smallest things
There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs
Sometimes I try and convince myself that things are okay when they're not
I'm not ugly
I'm not beautiful
I have nights where I cry myself to sleep
I've made the worse decisions of my life that lead to your heart ache
I have learned from my mistakes
I'm constantly learning, growing and making changes for the better
I don't have the softest touch
My communication skills need work
My edges may be rough
I don't always fit in
I don't have the greatest track record
I may not be the smartest person in the world
But I know what real love is
And I truly love you Emma
I may not be perfect
But I'm all yours
I'm so sorry
I really love you

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Thursday, February 18, 2010


"he that dares not grasp the thorn should never crave the rose." -anne bronte

I love you Emma
I am sorry for the hurt I have caused
The petals of a rose represent the gentle feelings that I have for you
You are special to me and I'll never give up on our love
The strength of the love I have for you is strong like the stem of the rose
And you are beautiful to me just like it
I Love You

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless! - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyaL

Monday, February 15, 2010



Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Sunday, February 14, 2010


HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EMMA, I LOVE YOU. I don't need a specified day to tell you that I love you because I try to tell you and show you how much I do love you everyday. Still, I am sorry for what I did and the situation I put us in and that we aren't able to spend Valentines Day together. I do want you to know that I am sorry and I will continue to try and prove to you that I am, that I am trustworthy, I am committed to you and that I will never hurt you again. I really am truly in love with you and will do whatever it takes. I know you trusted me with your heart and I ripped it apart and I am sorry that I did. I am more that positive that that will never ever happen again. I want to be there to help you through the healing process and repair your heart. I tried to show that in the drawing below. It's a thread n needle sewing up a heart with the words "new life" on the sides. It's to symbolize that I want to help put your heart back together and have a new beginning. I know it will take some time and a lot of hard work but I don't care how long or what it takes. I really am sorry and I really really love you Emma.

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal


Let me say this. It's one thing to come at me and to call me names, say whatever you want about me. If you feel the need to come read my blog and see what's going on in my life and try to create drama by leaving negative comments to me then you do that. It's another thing when you come and say things about Emma. I will not tolerate anyone saying anything negative toward her or about her. You can disrespect ME all you want but you WILL NOT come and disrespect her. It shows that you have noting better to do and I advise you find a life of your own that doesn't involve trying to bring negativity to someone else's. You don't even have the balls to own up to your own comments. It show's that you're insecure and scared. If you have something negative to say about Emma leave your name or come say it to me. I dare you. - Tiffany

Wednesday, February 10, 2010


I am sorry
I love
I hate
I help
I hurt
I smile
I cry
I let be
I judge
I blame
I'm humble
I make mistakes
I make bad choices
I forgive
I give 2nd chances
I envy
I'm selfish
I'm selfless
. . .I'm human

In spite of my mistakes and bad choices in the past I know I am a good person and really good at heart. All I want is everyone to see the best in me despite those bad choices I've made in my past, but it is because of my past that people only see the worst in me. That needs to change just like I have. I admit to my mistakes and take the blame (as I should) for my actions. Although they don't have rehab centers for being an asshole like I was, I have been and am still constantly changing and growing. Learning with every step taken. Not knowing what's to come or what may be, but knowing that only I can fulfill my dreams. Only I can figure the path that is best and will lead me to a higher place.

Everyone has that point and time in life where you finally find yourself. When you finally know who you are and what you want and who you want to be with. When you become mature and finally realize all the things the people tried to warn you about since you were a child. The time in life where it finally hits you. Some get to that point early and others later on in life. Some listen and learn from others mistakes and some just don't understand until they go through it themselves. And when you finally get to that point, some will do anything and everything they can to be who they know they are, get accomplished what they want and be with who they know they want to share life with. Others will confine their own happiness for the approval or happiness of others, then try to make themselves believe they can be happy with something else. Worried about how people will perceive them instead of doing what they know will make them happy.

But everyone is different. One thing that may be for sure is that when you do go through that time in life whenever it may be. When you stop living for others and stop just living in that moment and living just to fit it in or to be popular. When you stop sacrificing your own happiness to be accepted by people who could care less about you. When you go where you are celebrated not tolerated and notice the people who were never there before but suddenly have a great interest in your life and vice versa. When that change finally comes, it will be a good change that you will be happy with in the long run. A change that you made for you and for your life and not for anyone else's because no one can live your life but you. Still people will look down upon you and say you've changed in a bad way. They'll say you are changing who you are and becoming someone different when you're not. You just stopped living your life their way and finally standing up for who you really are.

I am being looked down upon now because of my mistakes in the past which is understandable being that we are all human and it is easy to point the finger. I admit to my mistake and stand strong knowing that I am a good person and I have changed for the better. Knowing what I want out of life and who I want to share it with. Knowing I will do anything to reach my dreams. I Tiffany, am in love with Emma. I always will be no matter what. My love for her is unconditional because I believe that you should either be or don't be. There's no middle ground so it leaves no room for confusion. I love her and always will, period. I will do everything in my power to show her that I do, that I'm sorry and that I have changed. In the face of true love you don't give up. I know this will be hard because it's already hard to wait around for something I know there's a possibility that it might never happen. It's even harder to give up when I know it's everything and the only thing not that I'll ever want and need but her also. Everyone should realize that a dream isn't just a dream, but its something that only you know and only you can make a reality. She is my cinderella, my dream only fits one size. My dream is going to be the hardest thing i'll probably have to face in my life but I don't think it's impossible. Okay I think I did enough yapping for today. Just had some things on my mind that I needed to let out. Bottom line I'm not giving up. Love never fails and the world is filled with infinite possibilities, go out and make them your own. I Love You Emma. I'm Sorry...

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Monday, February 8, 2010


There's a very nice quote that says "music speaks what can not be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul." The song below is such a beautiful and powerful song and it's as if the lyrics where taken right out of my mouth n heart and put over a beautiful melody. This song was sung so beautiful and passionate and expresses the way I feel inside. I want to dedicate it to you Emma. I'm in love with you!


Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless. - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Friday, February 5, 2010


Place your hands like mine in the picture above and follow along as I explain what it represents....

First, the thumb represents your parents. Now try separating them apart. Notice how they easily open? They separate so easy because you are not destined to live with your parents forever.... Now join them back together.

Next, separate your index fingers. You will see that they will open too. These fingers represent your siblings. They will also lead their own lives in the future.

The middle fingers represent yourself...

Next separate your pinkies. These fingers will open as well because they represent your kids, who will also have a different life from yours, eventually.

Lastly, try opening your ring fingers... You're right, you can't. This is because the ring finger represents you & your spouse; for me, us & the love I have for Emma. No matter what I will remain together as a part of her for the rest of my life. To me this represents exactly what I am trying to get across. I will never leave her side, only stand together by her no matter what. It is the ring finger because it belongs to her and only her forever. She is not my number one because then that would mean that there's a second and third. She is my only one.

Thank You for reading. Peace & God Bless - Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


See I love the Lord

but sometimes its like

I love her more

I love the seas

and I love the shore

but no love for no beach

baby that’s law

i trip, i fall

so we fell apart

please have sympathy

and forgive my young history

I swear I love her with all my heart

every vein, every vessel

every bullet logged

with every flower that I ever took apart

placement above all others

I will give you greatness

eyes glow green with the logo of our dreams

love, the purpose of our scene

she would be my queen

I, a female version of her king


we would be too cool

and we would both rule


and she would never feel pain

and never be without happiness

ever, again

and if the rain stops

and everything’s dry

I will cry

just so she can drink the tears from my eyes

I will teach her how to fly

n if her engine ever stalls

and she plummet from the sky

I’ll cushion her fall

but I will keep her high

so began our reign

the Trinity, her and I came

no weather man, could ever stand

what her and I can

umbrellas, whatever

put plywood on propeller planes

then pray to God the the floods subside

cause you will need a sub

till he does reply

Can you feel it?

Do I love her?

the likes of which you have never seen

and if she ever die

I’d retire as well

a match made in Heaven

set the fires in hell

Thanks for reading & God Bless -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Monday, February 1, 2010


Emma I've failed you so many times I can't even count them all. If I apologized a billion ways it still wouldn't cover them all. You loved me when I didn't even love myself, how can you forgive someone like me with all of my mess? Stress I caused on you and so many, used words that cut like a sword, with the same tongue I said I loved you and with the same tongue I cursed you. If you turn your back on me like many times I did to you, I'd be a dean woman walking, lost in the wilderness. My flesh sometimes get the best of me, and 9 times out of 10 I fall to my knees. I ask you to forgive me. I can't afford to make too many mistakes and end up losing my life on a temporary kind of high. Playing Russian roulette with my life. That's no way to live, in doubt and fear. But you gave me power and a sound mind. So I thank you for sparing me while I was wallowing in self-pity.

My God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins, because I dread the loss of heaven, and the pains of hell; but most of all because I have offend Thee, my God, who are all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of Thy grace, to confess my sins, to do penance, and to amend my life. Lord, Forgive what I have been, sanctify what I am & order what I shall be. Amen

My apologies Emma, to the entire Garton Family & all close friends of...

Thanks for reading & God Bless -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal

Sunday, January 31, 2010


I have a lot of interest in art and respect for all artists. I like to think of my self as artistic sometimes and one of the things I like to do is draw and sketch. I usually sketch images of places or things or emotions but never of people. I always felt I wasn't good enough to capture the uniqueness of faces or had enough skill to know the right shading & techniques being that I've never taken a class before. Well I decided to try it and of course I wanted to sketch Emma. I was nervous to do so because if it didn't come out right it wouldn't be because of her lack of beauty, (she's definitely not lacking in that area at all) it would be my lack of skills. So I took a shot at it and I wanted to share the outcome with everyone. It's my first time sketching a portrait of someone so go easy on me. I hope you like them baby.

Thanks for reading & God Bless -Tiffany
.::E&T FOREVER::. 143Emma/ForeverLoyal